I want a guy...

Who cares...
Who stays up until I fall asleep, texting him...
Who doesn't see anyone else...
Who smiles at me...
Who hugs me from behind...
Who says you look amazing, when I'm wearing sweats...
Who brags to his friends about me...
Who takes me to movies, and lets me hold his hand...
Who doesn't care how screwed up my family...
Who doesn't care if I act like a weirdo...
Who helps me up when I fall...

To be truthful though...I just want a boy to see me for me, I can live without any of that...
More than anything I just want a guy who loves me and can't imagine being without me...

And i found one..

my one and only
~Arthur Nyelang Moses~

100 TRUTHS

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage (skyjuice )
2. Last phone call - (Arthur Cyg..hehe )
3. Last text message - ( Mell bulan )
4. Last song you listened to - (TAYLOR sWIFT -CRAZIER )
5. Last time you cried - ( LAST2 NIGHT)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice - ( yes )
7. Been cheated on - ( yes! )
8. Kissed someone & regretted it - (NO )
9. Lost someone special - ( No )
10. Been depressed - ( Yes )
11. Been drunk and threw up - ( yes! )

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Pink
13. Red
14. Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)

15. Made a new friend - ( Yes )
16. Fallen out of love - ( Yes..always falling in love with the same person since last three year, Arthur! )
17. Laughed until you cried - ( Never..ada kah mcm ya?? haha)
18. Met someone who changed you - ( Yes )
19. Found out who your true friends were - ( Yes )
20. Found out someone was talking about you - ( YES )
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list - ( No! & Never!)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life - ( 80% )
23. How many kids do you want - ( 3 )
24. Do you have any pets - ( goldfish! my mum br beli..hehe)
25. Do you want to change your name - ( nope..my boy always call me, bie..hehe..so sweet!)
26. What did you do for your sweet seventeen birthday - ( Celebration with my family )
27. What time did you wake up today - ( 6.10 A.M. )
28. What were you doing at midnight last night - ( sleeping, of coz! )
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for - ( MARRY! with ARTHUR NYELANG MOSES )
30. Last time you saw your Mother - ( yesterday..)
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life - (i hope that my financial getting better, i need money..so much.. )
32. What are you listening to right now - ( lagu aizat, susun silang kata..haha.. ;pp)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - ( YES MY SCHOOLMATE )
34. What's getting on your nerves right now - ( pa ya?? xphm..haha)
35. Most visited webpage - ( http://www.facebook.com/ )
36. Whats your real name - ( MICHELLE AK APONG )
37. Nicknames - ( mang, and arthur always call me bie..baby.. :) )
38. Relationship Status - (in relationship, I'M TAKEN! )
39. Zodiac sign - ( SCORPION, sme wif arthur..sweet kan..)
40. Male or female - ( Female )
41. Primary School - ( SRB ST.RITA, SRK PERBANDARAN SIBU NO.3 & SRK SIBU JAYA )
42. Secondary School - ( SMK ROSLI DHOBY, SMK SIBU JAYA )
43. High school/college - ( UITM )
44. Hair colour - ( BLACK)
45. Long or short - ( LONG )
46. Height - (150 cm )
47. Do you have a crush on someone - ( yes..:)) ARTHUR NYELANG MOSES)
48: What do you like about yourself - ( Everything..:)))
49. Piercings - (YES )
50. Tattoos - ( Nope, but i wish i have one, one day..hahaha )
51. Received presents - ( Yes )

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery - ( NOPE )
53. First piercing - ( i can't remember, i got piercing since i was a baby..maybe..ask my mom.. )
54. First tattoo - ( Never had one either, but i want to have my own tatoo so bad! )
55. First sport you joined - ( bola keranjang.. )
56. First kiss - ( 2008, with Arthur..first & the last kiss..)
58. First boyfriend/girlfriend - ( 2005 )

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating - ( Nope )
60. Drinking - ( Nope )
61. I'm about to - ( SLEEPING)
62. Listening to - ( Song.. )
63. Waiting for - (MSG FROM HUBBY! for sure..hehe )

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids - ( Yes )
65. Get Married - ( Yes, only with my Arthur )
66. Career - ( Successful women in EVERYTHING!)

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes - ( Lips )
68. Hugs or kisses - ( Hugs & Kisses! i want both! hehe)
69. Shorter or taller - ( TALLER,,haha )
70. Older or Younger - (OLDER )
71. Romantic or spontaneous - ( Spontaneous will make things become romantic sometimes..:) <--I'm really agree with Commorie..hehe)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms - ( Stomach )
73. Sensitive or loud - ( SENSITIVE )
74. Hook-up or relationship - ( Relationships )
75. Trouble maker or hesitant - ( Troublemaker )

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger - ( Never! )
77. Drank hard liquor - ( Yes )
78. Lost glasses/contacts(No )
79. Sex on the first date (No!)
80. Broken someone's heart - ( Yes...huhu..saya sungguh menyesal..i got KARMA! )
82. Been arrested - ( No )
83. Turned someone down - ( Yup )
84. Cried when someone died - ( Yes )
85. Fallen for a friend - ( myb, i'm forgot.. )

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself - ( Yes )
87. Miracles - ( Yes )
88. Love at first sight - ( Not really )
89. Heaven - ( Yes )
90. Religion - ( Yes )
91. Kiss on the first date - ( Nope )
92. God - ( Yes )


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time - ( Never ever ever.. )
95. Did you sing today - ( Yes, back to december by taylor swift..hehe )
96. Ever cheated on somebody - ( yes..hehe )
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go - ( I THNK NOPEE..past is past..move on girl! )
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be - ( donno..)
99. Afraid of falling in love - ( Never..)
100. Posting this as 100 truths - ( yep!)

Original answer by me, Michelle Apong

I'm missing you

It may seem like I don't care, but you really have no idea how many tears I cry before I fall asleep..

:(

:(

i miss him...a lot..ermm..ssh nya taun tok..mcm sial jak..lpas cgek, cgek gk prob dtg..xdpt ku ehh..ku xkuat..ku xdpt mcm tok..mun bdn skt, xhal..dpt cover esok lusa..p mun ati skt,mcm2 mslh ada..lmk effect nya..bkn ku mok ignore nya shari2 tok..ku stress..ku xpt mok lyn stress bnyak glak..mlm tdik bkn pa ku skt ati glak ngn nya, nya tauk ku stress..ku nang mgharapkan nya jak org blh plh ku lupa ngn smua mslh ku, blh plh ku heppy, blh plh ku tetak..lupa smua lah..p nya mcm xserius jak..xblh kah nya focus skejap ngn aku..xblh kah nya rasa ckit mcm ni prasaan ku..yup..myb nya mok main2, p time2 ku down mcmtok, logik kah nya mok layan bnda lain lok..xpenting glak kah aku tok bg nya..myb aku nang jaik, suka merajuk, slu anok2 nya, mnta phatian..p slh kah mlm ya nya layan aku bait skit mun nya syg aku..xksian kah nya nnga ku tgh down smpey kmpang ati nya xlalek ngan aku..xku tauk gk..nangis smpey tertido ku mlm tdik..ku xsangka org yg ku harap2kn blh plh ku cmya..myb bg nya pkara kcik tok..ermmm..mana lah..xtauk gk ku..ku just mok tnangkan fikiran nektok..trlalu banyak masalah ku taun tok..smpey ku xtauk gk mok pdh pa..ku stress ngn tmpat praktikal, ngn family, ngn duit, ngn kawan..ya lah ku xmok nya pn trmsok dlm snarai bnda yg plh ku stress..ya lah ku ignore nya jak hri tok..tp xtrasa ku mala jak tsbut2 nama nya hr tok..i miss u cyg..i really miss u..*tears

:'(

impian & angan2 = sama jak..;(

hermmmmm..huhuhu.. :(

*sad mode

ermm..lmk dh ku xblogging tok..bnyak cita ku mok share..bz bpa minggu tk..tk pn ttba ati mok taip benda kt ctok..huhu..xda org ngn share..actually ada, p xsemua yg terkeluar..p kt ctok pn sma juak lak..xlah terkeluar semua, xkedak tulis dlm diary..huhu..i miss my diary..but at least ku dapat luah balit lah rsa kekecewaan hati yang teramat sangat..rsa give up pn ada..huhu..xlamak gk ku mok abiz ngan diploma..huhu..diploma?? bagi ku xda makna diploma ya...nektok mun ijazah pn org mok ambik keja sebelah mata jak nanga, pa gk diploma..p at least ijazah ya tinggi gk dr diploma lah..ermmm..nang ada lah org tawar ku keja ngn stakat sijil diploma ya,p pa jak lah keja nya..just clerk..mun cmya bgus ku xpelu ambk diploma dlok..pkey jak sijil form.5 kan?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
huhhh~puaz ati ku..yahhh...ermm..waaaaa...xda lah beza gilak..gk juak keja yg sma, cuma gaji lebih bapa ratus jak..pa jak lah! ku mun dpat mok gilak continue study lekak tok, bulan 9 lak..myb mok ambik kos lain, yg psti bukan OM! p ya lah..da bnda yang menghalang..my result??? no! layak bah aku! lebih dr layak..p da benda lain..bnyk hal mok difikir..bnda pertama, DUIT! kedua, ermmm..mun ku selfish, xda nok "kedua" ya..p pa kah daya..ku pn perlu sacrifice juak..demi utk diterima org "kedua"..myb terlalu muda ku mok fkr smua ya..p mun difikir dlm hati ku, ku pn xmok lamak2..p ya lah, ku trpaksa mengorbankan benda yang ku maok, impian ku slamatok mok ambik ijazah..dpt bangga gk ngn family, at least study ku tinggi gk..ermm..p kelak bk kata org, jangan trlalu berangan2 dlm idup tok..bkn sng mok dpt keja..ku tauk, ku sedar family ku bkn org berada gilak..ku mok gilak nnga family ku sng..p senang kh mun keja just pakey gaji diploma jak?? xmemadai ya bg ku..mun bena dr dlm ati ku lah..mun family ku dpt tunggu 3,4 taun gk mok tunggu ku dpt ijazah, knk nk lain ya xdpt..huhu..lmk glak kah ya?? msih muda bh kita tk..pa hal mok rushing gilak..p mun dfkir2 ku pn xmok lamak2..p bukan ngn cara tok..cara yg polah aku sntiasa down, rsa xpuaz ati, rsa mcm bnda ku maok xdpt ditunaikan sdangkan aku tauk ku dpt bah benda ya..p disebabkan org lain, benda ya semua musah..musnah berkecai..mun nya musnah, p ku xrasa frust, xhal..tk ku frust gilak2..ku rasa down yg teramat sangat..cuz ku tauk lak, ku kan down gilak2 mun nanga dak kwn ku dpt continue study cdak..p aku??? ermmm..*tears...knk ku rsa terkongkong?? yg teramat sangat..ku luar jak heppy...smua org nanga ku ska gilak tetak, p dlm ku spa nk tauk..wahhh..so lame ayat ya! :) *fake smile! huhu...waaaaa... :'( da ku terfikir mun ku let go jak "nya" ya, ku kan rsa sedih, p dlm msa yg sama aku kan rsa bebas! p ku xmok..xboleh! huhu..ku dilemma..yg teramat sangat..antara impian ku ngn kebahagiaan org..kenak aku xboleh plh my own decision arr??? salah kah pendapat aku?? salah kah aku rsa heppy ngn benda aku maok??? salah kah nya tunggu aku??? salah kah ku polah benda yg ku nang maok tanpa org fikir aku tok selfish??? salah kah aku mok ambik degree??? salah kah ku heppy???

*tears..

:'(

The Ways of Life. . .

BIRTH:
Getting ready for the pain on it's way. . .

SMILING:
Behind every smile there is story just waiting to get told. . .

LAUGHING:
The story behind the smile being told in a secret code, only true friends can understand. . .

CRYING:
Eyes bleeding because the heart is hurting to much to bleed itself. . .

LOVE:
When you get the butterflies every time you see or hear of someone, when you miss someone more and more every second since the said goodbye. Always ending by walking away with two non-fixable pieces. . .

HEADACHES:
Drama getting inside your head and messing around. . .

HEART ATTACKS:
The heart finally breaking from the build up of pain. . .

SUICIDE:
A way of saying "I Quit". . .

DEATH:
God saying "Your Fired". . .

Lost your pen=no pen
No pen=no notes
No notes=no study
No study=Fail
Fail=no diploma
No diploma=no work
no work=no money
no money=no food
no food=you get skinny
you get skinny=then you get ugly
Ugly=no love
no love=no marriage
no marriage=no children
no children= alone
alone=depression
depression=sickness
sickness=death

Lesson: Don’t lose your pen, you will die.. :P